a sunday smile

I remember
a feeling unknown
falling in love
and not to my knowledge
utter chaos

I remember
our first intentions
and how they changed
so completely.

I remember
the pure connection I felt
like it wasn't our first time
and how it seemed that we melted
into one

I remember
the worry setting in
tears welling on my lower lashes
and how they were trained
not to fall

I remember
the fear I felt
when you looked into my iris'
and said you loved me

That fear pushes
and pulls me
away and into you.


You.
Us.
It's something completely different
You'll be my everything one second
and the next I'm prepared to pretend
pretend that you never once entered my life

It's awfully confusing but at the same time
I'm so in love with it
This controlled switch of emotions

You are here to ruin me
You will try
and succeed for a few minutes
Then I will go
and be this refreshed human
happy as an innocent




I remember
words
phrases
that you've said to many girls
foolish ones
and now there's me
Allison.

I will be the one to show you change
I will be the one to turn your world upside down
and if not that
than your world will remain the same.
If this is so,
I wish you the very best
for you will not see a day so bright
a smile so bright
you will not hear a voice so pure
words so sincere
ever again.

You pushed
and I flew.